Outcast by Designation
I'd say it's been like this since I started there. Every single time, I feel like a foreigner. Maybe even an outcast. I can only imagine what it might be. Maybe it's the age difference. Maybe it's the difference in life's experience. Quite possibly, it may even have to do with the school I go to and its implied gentry (or lack thereof). While it could also be that I'm a natural wallflower at times, I'm convinced at this point that it's well beyond this.

I'm not looking to have friends here. I've got plenty of friends. But it's the notion that I'll be serving the flag with some of them someday and I feel like I'm not one of them. I'm not looking to be buddies here. I just want to have at least some measure of recognition as a comrade, not an outsider.

I'll be very happy come May. I'm sick of this.