Movies of Derring-Do Adventure
Last night, I was watching Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade at Grace's. I must have seen this movie umpteen-thousand times and I never seem to get bored of it. While watching the movie, the question went around about why they don't seem to make movies like this anymore. Why is that?

I can't remember, for the life of me, the last time I saw a quality adventure film. Come to think of it, I can't remember the last time I saw an adventure film, period. Seems like movies these days aren't as witty or fun.

Busy Weekend
Yes, this 3-day weekend (which is still not over yet) has been busy.

So far, I've seen quite a bit of folks I haven't seen in a while, participated in a color guard ceremony, saw a movie, went to an airshow, and just plain hung out and chilled.

On the flip side, my room is STILL a mess, I have a pile of papers on my desk I need to sort through, and my laptop is still busted. Oh well. Good times =)

A Random Scene in the Life of Geoff
At any one time, I'll be dancing in my room to sounds of Lenny Kravitz. (yes with the door closed, windows shut, and the music loud).

Letting Go
Not long ago, I was reminded that for many things in life, you needn't worry. Some things you just have to let go and just trust in God.

That's hard for me some times. All too often, I worry about things that are just simply out of my control. Sure, it helps to be self-reliant...but even then, you're still human..

Bite Me (I'm done)
I'm done with finals!!! woo hoo!

If your're on the quarter system...I know you'd like to kill me. Tuff luck. bite me =)

Looking for a Calling
I wonder if any of this means anything: My heart's desire is to help people. I like to listen to people. I'm no stranger to maintaining a standard of physical fitness. I thrive on esprit de corps. At times, people have said that I do things with a lot of fire in my eyes. To boot, I get a rise out of hearing the ER theme song.

I wonder...

To Feel Alive
Tonight, Mike and Jen mentioned something to the effect that the "bad" things in life is sometimes "good." This is to say that sometimes being in some state of turmoil is a kind of reminder that you are indeed alive. At first, I thought this was some twisted way of making sense out of the less than desirable things in our lives. I guess in some measure, its true. Life is drama (good and bad).

The Nice Guy Loses Again
Ok, I may be a little bit melodramatic right now, but I might as well get it off my chest. As of late, the sincere, nice guy lost. The other guy of questionable intentions and disposition won. Yes, I was the former.

Thinking
Sometimes I wake up, charged with a lot of energy for me to start the day. But rather than get out of bed, I stay in, staring at the ceiling. This happens a lot especially on days where I can sleep in (like today). I think deeply, while I lie in bed, about everything and nothing.

You'd be surprised how much time can go by. For instance, I woke up at 5AM this morning (because my internal clock is set there these days). Went back to sleep to wake up at 8AM, wide awake. Then I pretty much lay there, thinking until 11:30.

What do I think about? Lots of things. I tend to think about life, the problems I deal with on a day-to-day basis, women, career, personal projects, etc. Do I ever make sense of anything by thinking this much? Rarely. A lot of times, I'm just very reflective and just want to put things into perspective.

The Price of Honesty
As of late I've been thinking about how I relate to people. Lately, I think I've been paying though the nose for trying to be an honest man. I make it a point to be very truthful to friends because: Hey! they're friends and they deserve as much...even if the subject matter is a touchy one. But, I realize that only a special few (close friends) will only recognize the value of that.

It sucks to take a risk in bearing your soul and receiving nothing definitive in return. It's like hanging out on a limb and not being met halfway for it. I think it sucks that some people don't get this or they simply don't care. Right now, I'm wondering if being a truthful person at all is even worth it...

Slacker
I've been a slacker. Sure, we've all got our lazy times and we all see our fair share of it from time to time. However, I've been outrightly lazy recently. I think I need more discipline. Perhaps I'm tired of all this school and Army stuff. I dunno.

More Stargate Jiving!
I'm almost done with with Season 6 of SG-1 on DVD. Last night I saw the one episode that was written by Christopher Judge (the actor who plays Teal'c). I thought it was pretty good. At first glance, you may think that Christopher Judge is some kind of meat-head, football player turned actor who plays a role where little dialogue is necessary. However, I think that is far from the truth. I think he's actually an innovative writer and a pretty good actor. In the episode, he dreams of an alternate reality where he's a human being and he's trying to confront more of who he is. Pure genious, I say.

On another note, I'm looking forward to this: Stargate Atlantis. Too bad I'll be in Ft. Lewis during that time. Can somebody record this for me??

Career Crossroad (Again)
I talked to a Chaplain at my unit about this subject and he asked me this: "What is your heart's desire?" I told him that I enjoyed helping people, I liked being a part of a larger picture, serving a grander purpose. He mentioned his life's story and I thought it was really interesting.

Long story short, his message was simply that I don't really need to look far to to do these things. In fact, I don't really need to change a whole lot in my current state to do the above. I guess that's food for thought.

On another note, I'm thinking about graduate school again. This time, I'm debating between an MBA or a Master's in Public Administration. Of course, I don't think I'll be wanting to do full-time school again. I think what I'll be doing eventually is work full-time and do the school thing part-time. I guess I got quite a bit of time to decide.

Seems like my future is constantly in a nebulous state. Only time will tell I suppose.

Career Crossroad
I have no idea where my life is headed now. No clue, really. I'm in a state of limbo since I'm in school full-time.

After having a variety of roles at the last company I worked at, I found that the only business function that I really liked was graphic design. Henceforth, that's why I'm in school. I can totally get lost in doing this and never get tired (well not true, but you know what I mean). A friend of mine recently commented that I'll probably be making a lot of money when I get out. While that may be true, I can't help but wonder if this is what I want to do long-term.

In the end, I don't want to feel like I did when I worked in Cupertino: Tired of my job. It was living proof for me that if leadership isn't looking out for you, all your hard work and overtime isn't going to matter much to them. And let me tell you, it really didn't take me long to get sick of being there. I felt like I was stuck there, gradually feeling like my contributions there mattered little in the grand scheme of things. I was also constantly wondering if there was anything else that I could be doing with my life...something worthwhile. Long story short, I don't think I want to feel that way again.

On a another note, some of you may know that I have aspirations in law enforcement. For some time, I wanted to submit applications to the FBI, the USSS, SJPD, and SCSD. As of more recenty, I'm also looking into LAPD. You may (and sometimes I) wonder why I want to undertake any of these potentially dangerous professions. I guess I want to do things that make a difference in society. I guess I want the authority and respect that such a profession may offer. I guess sometimes, I want my shot at heroism. I don't know.

On top of this, I'm not sure if I can get out of my reserve contract to go active-duty for the Army. I'm not even sure if I want to stay in the Army for too long. We'll see what comes my way.

Being in a career crossroad can make my head spin a little. I guess I should pray for guidance...

Winging It
I tend to wing a lot of things. For a while I was pretty darn good at it. Well, reality is catching up to me. Today I tried to wing a presentation and it was rocky. It was on a subject that I liked (Asian art). I started out with a lot of confidence and I ended up petering out with a lot of quivering talk and a lot of "ummms." I guess I'm not exactly invincible here. Well, I guess it only means that I got to prepare a little more.

Standing Alone...
I can't help but sometimes feel like I'm being left behind. It's like the eerie calmness of wind blowing through a ghost town or some other kind of strange emptiness. Although I'm not stressed about it or unglued, I can't say that I'm not bothered in some little way. I guess the best way to describe it is perpetual tenuousness...

Resurfacing
I can't believe it's been this long since I last wrote. This is beginning to be a habit. Too much has been happening recently. I got thoughts on quite a few things. Sorry about disappearing like that.