Moment of Dire Truth
It's times like these that make me wonder if I did the right thing. Maybe I should have given it more thought? Maybe time is an issue? Perhaps I was thinking too much from my point-of-view? Perhaps it would have been better to banish the notion? It was a moment of stark clarity...dire truth, if you will. I can't help but feel a bit tenuous here, however. I just hope everything's ok...and I don't mean for my sake.

Another Random Scene in the Life of Geoff
I'm sure it was amusing for Alvin and Jen to watch me grooving to the sounds of U2's latest hit Vertigo. Come to think of it, it feels pretty soothing. Of course, my neck hurts a bit for some reason...

The Sting of Reality
Had a really interesting conversation with Pak earlier this evening about life and the sort. It seems to me that there's a part of me that likes pain. Yes, I just just said that. Lemme explain.

I think somewhere in college, I've reasoned that if one doesn't feel pain in life, you just simply aren't living in reality. I guess in time, that changed to meaning that if your life is all about roses and rainbows, you're living in a childish dream state and just don't have the stones to face up to harsh reality.

However, I'm realizing that this viewpoint has its flaws as well. I guess I realize that life is comprised of all of these things and that our time here on earth is a short one. I mean we can be ensconced in the sadness and pain that pervades life all we like. I guess you can also say that it's understandable since we as humans have a high tendency to try and understand things rationally. But even so, we just can't go on griping about life and being bitter about how life dealt us an unfair hand. It only perpetuates our pains. Being entirely cynical just doesn't cut the mustard.

My resolution here is to seek the good and strive for the worthwhile. Yes, the cynics will always regard such endeavors as quixotic. I'm not naive. I know that life isn't all about roses and rainbows. But on that same token, life isn't about despair and pain either. To be stuck in that mode just isn't humanly right, somehow.

Perhaps a prayer to see life under a different light...